Why am I feeling this way..

I hate the feeling of pms. It makes everything so negative and makes one so snappy.

I should be over the mood when i receive this. but i ain't. Is it because of the sickening homones? Or are there underlying cause.. which reminds me that he has given HER something of this nature and that i absolutely abhore that thought. It makes me feel like i am second to her , i am his second choice and my mind runs wild thinking that its because he didn't manage to get her that's why he settled for me.

I probably shouldn't be thinking this way. No..this shouldn't be it.

I hope this unsettling feel pass quickly. Its depressing and so not the usual me.

It belongs to Us

He came back on Mon 02/04.His 21 Birthday.

A day of anticipation , filled with nervousness & excitment.

He reached early. ETA was 1400 but he was already back at 1230.

The feelings is mixed.Once upon a time we were looking at the same moon from 2 different location. Now , he is in the same country as I am . No more Time difference. No more worries about escalating phone bills. No more worries about what each other is doing.

We met at 0015.Technically after his birthday. The feeling is so different. Trying to act cool while being nervous is soooo difficult...We chatted for about an hour. It feels familiar yet strange. it was the same laughter , it was the inside joke that we both understood. but what was different was that we were sitting beside each other...

We met again the next day. Dead tired. Shacked after a day of work.I brought him to the park behind. We walked we talked. It just felt so good.Half hours seems juz like a few minutes. I can't get enough.

Wednesday. Our "First" date. He suggested Jap food & to meet at City Hall.
That hour passed painfully...haha..Coz this was the first time we met in the 'day' and window shopping...with nothing in mind...we were counting down to 7pm..dinner time!

He made reservations at Sun Moon. Didn't know that they have this branch at Chijmes too! The restaurant was very posh. Black dark interior. We were lucky to get a gal of 19y to serve us.SHe was very funny and well... lighten the situation pretty lot. It sure feels uneasy to be eating at such places..Give me Pepper Lunch at anytime! But the food was quite good i must say.i felt like an idiot thou...First time trying the Foi Gras! Didn't know how to handle it and still must pretend to be eating it with class.Muahaha..And don't let me get talking about the Sashimi... Its just so thick and heavenly!( I will blog about this more in my food Blog!) The night ended with our first movie " Sunshine" at Marina Square.

This was the first time a guy don't just "drop me off" at "somewhere near my home" but getting down with me and actually walking up to the door with me.

Isn't this bliss?

Met up late again on Thursday. he drove. Cute car..his dad's actually. We watched "The Reaping". I felt his warm hands on my face.I felt his love when he jabbed me playfully. I can't believe that i could really use some excuses to make him stay longer.And he DID want to stay longer..haha...Those sweet memories :P

Today...it was a short meetup. Time doesn't really matter already right? I am more and more sure of him.. I hope he is feeling the same way too :P

This post is a dedication to myself , to him, to us. I want to remember all these down the road.

Everybody has their own story to tell and this is mine. i guess if its a love story , its gona be beutiful in their own special way right?

I just hope all these never ends...