Normally ..and i said normally..i shouldn't be here...i should be working my ass off working on that sales presentation which i have a shoe-and-tell i haven thought of , rushing throu my part of the web design project as well as study for the test on the 4mar...

But i can't..can't..

in too much pain ...

why do women have periods?or should i phrase , why do women have cramps??

Boy...they are damm damm damm painful...can't feel where its starting , can't see the ending..
but i feel a big pimple and trouble brewing thou...

i am stck at chapter 7:retouching and restoring of my Photoshop 7 Bible..Great book..but my cramps demand more attention than the book...so its right here..stiin on the computer table since 1pm..

Help me!!!
what should and can i do with these tonnes of work!!!i feel like burying myself in the blanket and never wake up again ...

Ate even thou there was no hunger , i had carrot cake for breakfast , duck rice for lunch and tada..chocolates for snacks!!!

help me before i kill myself..please...


sleepy , tired , crampy , loaded with lotsa undone stuffs..great huh...

think i better have some of the little pink pills before i slit myself up..

tata...


*For the record..at this period of time...i am entitled to sprout any vulgarities or indecent words which-i-normally-don't juz because I AM A WOMAN $&%*&%*(%^768969^#^^%$

THANK YOU VERY MUCH

HIya peoples..i am back again !

I have this terrible thing called P.E.R.I.O.D goin on so at times, u may not understand what i am verbalizing , take it or leave it (i am not in a very friendly mood today)

Today(26feburary 2005)
i woke up goggy enough...not enough sleep but the cramps couldn't let me sleep any longer so i got up at 9plus p/s i slept at 4am , lazed around and watched DVDs.Pratically zoning , then got calls and stuffs..turned out my ex-colleague is getting married and she is going to invite me!!
ok , nothing to cheer about , juz waitin to meet up with THAT witty and loving bunch of co-workers that i still refer to as colleagues (read:not EX-colleagues).Then after that met up with sindy and guys for a sorta farewell meal for sindy .

GUys , sorry for today..i feel extremeley tired and juz sucks ...thanks for all the care and concern and understanding :)

The pictures i will update on my other blog until i figure out how to add in a new sign-in address in the bloggerbot thingy..and since i haven figure out how to add links to this addy , i am afraid have to ask you guys to click to the travelblog for any uploads.No worries thou , will send photos to either Snapfish or to emails so ...

Friday(25 Feb 2005)
WEnt for company's Dinner and Dance at Swissotel the Stamford.Was extremely tired as usual and was hit by the 'red waves'..so made it even worse..
Anyway , did kind of enjoy it especially at the end , not sure whether it was due to a little drinking of red wine or what ..danced a little :)
A picture tells a thousand words..so click here ...
we went to IntroBar after that ..had some mocktail and home we went at 1am

MOnday to Thursday
Dun remembered anything so figured it wasn't that important ?No major stuffs happening anyway ...

***am so goggy ...***

CNY pictures updated on travelbugsinaction.blogspot.com...

does anyone know's what's going on in my computer?i recently so called 'updated' my MSN messenger and now , i get chinese on all my pages! Can anyone help?i can deal with speaking mandarin better than my english but i definetely do better reading in English Thank you very much :()

okie , the past week has been very tiring ..didn't have any good sleep as was worrying about my two tests...guess what..the first wasn't that fantastic..imagine trying to rush the paper for what..haha...you could never guess it..i actually...ACTUALLY , rushed through my paper to pick up PhoTOS..can u imagine that ?Its a first for me and i am surprised by such a behaviour of mine..HA.
You know what , its my first time where i could collect photographs that fast n its wasn't even called EXPRESS SERVICE.i went at 6plus and the person told me i could collect it at 7.30.It was fast manz..considering that i have 231 photos on the way .

ok , then the second test was non existent..not until 4mar aniwei , so that was a consolation .

this week , i have been watching a lot of sex and the city , gona devour them as soon as i can .
its so interesting ...some people might not agree , yeah..i dun know..but tv /shows affect a great deal of my life.
Tv is jux such a wonderful invention .

okie , then this week , i was also thinking about my future..like where do i see myself in 5 years?10years?20 years?
the thought scares me , what will i be in these times to come?
My present life is blah...i am single , doin contract job and studying something that i am spending a lot on but not sure where it is taking me.Do we ever get a sign of what we might be in the future??
i hope not..coz if its gona be...i will be spending my time thinking about my life , my job over and over again..which isn;t really fun by the way.

hey i like blogging...it helps u to document your life so that when u look back , its how i came over the years..hopefully the life gets better..dun wana sit at the exact spot here and reading my archives and thinking.."if this was my life in the past...what the hell am i doing now"

well , i hope to see myself in a very nice apartment or house that preferably paid for by myself , a job that i love for its and money and well , a life that i could look back on with pride :)

And also friends that are there for you no matter how times have changed.

I guess that it is inevitable that as time goes ,priorties and friends change.you meet different people , do different stuffs and you GRow up..Friends that were your breakfast , lunch and dinner in the past suddenly became like THE SNACK.

I used to have this idea of what defines best friends , what defines good friends and casual acquiantances.Best Friends to me means doing the same thing , having the same thoughts , you know , like peas in a pod..and if that 'friend' have different thoughts from me , that would be a betrayal.Good friends are then like a more "less restrictive" kind , where you allow them to have your own thoughts and of course acquaintanece are purely people you meet once in a blue moon , talk like long time friends then forget about one another until your next meet up..

pretty selfish but true aspect of how i define friendship...i duuno how many people out there think the same way i do ...i hope someone does..they do right?or don;t they?

i dun know how much i still have that 'old school' still in me..yucks..but i know that a true friend is one that tells u how dirty her house is on the same day she is inviting people over , a true friend is someone who tells you about her dirty thoughts , a true friend is someone who brings you a gift when you least expects it , a true friend knows what you need or want without saying a word , a true friend is one who borrows your stuffs and don't return it coz she knows you will be forever in her life , a true friend is there when u are bitching about your sad sad life and she is there without any judgement ..and a true friend is not afraid to show you what she is like ...roses and blemishes and all..

oh my ..yeah..and one that doesn't blame you when you dont fufill any one of that ...

***Peeps , just wana say i love you all , i hope you guys stay in my life forever , no matter how the world have changed , how circumstances have changed , how we have changed...
no matter how far apart we are , physically/mentally ***

Cheers to Friendship!

p.s..

love you all ..really ..mucks

sorry- for- being-not-there-all-the-time kacee

i think i am goin crazy again.imagine ..a truckload of readings to do in preparation for two upcoming tests and i am here blogging...amazing huh...
okie , maybe still in the CNy celebration spirit.Cony called a while ago with regards to change of plan for tomorrow's itinerary.we would have to meet 11am at clementi instead of 12 at woodlands..which leaves me lesser time to prepare and travel..but was glad thou..since she could make it for this gathering.

a bit of updates on my CNy celebration ..okie..the first day as usual was BORING.went over to gramps place for lunch in my frumpy old clothes..said the usual greetings..duh..took some photos with some very UNWILLING cousins..they must be thinking.." what the f*** does this stupid woman wants making us pose like stupid idiots.."(the youngest is at least 10)
then with compliments from my good ole dad,we went all the way to ang Mo Kio to visit someone who WASN"T home! as usual!
dun understand why guys have to make the stupid assumption that they know everything when they dun? i mean , we are all humans , the world so huge that u can;t know everything so why can't juz admit that u duuno ?well , aniwei , after tat boring episode ..we came home to watch tv..wahah..bliss!
oh ya , went to kbox wz my cousins!veri expensive thou..omparable to my most expensive kbox experience.

top on list
1. kbox Executive @ SGD35
2.kbox Tampines @ SGD32
*The above is based on personal experience and does nt intend to imply anything*
btw , i love kbox..so far the most frequent karaoke operator? i have been 2..


10 Jan 2005
the day i have been more excited for..
haven seen the kids for a very long time..duuno how much they have grown since i last saw them.
for your information , little darryl is a year-odd old and is walking alreadi , compared to 3 mths old when i last saw him :)

absolutely adorable!!!

then ran around with the kids..boy! they have so much energy in them !wonder if they took energizer as their meal supplements..keke...

after that we went starbucks to chill like rich tai tais...
in my effort to adopt a healthier lifestyle, opted for a green tea this time..
sat , chatted...
kinda worried ..coz our gatherings are gettin less frequent n in smaller numbers..all goin off with dears dears or probably not coming at all..we forsee that there will be 2 lonely singles sittin alone in the corner of mu mu's house in the next gathering thou i certainly pray not so ...

all these talks again have affected my determination not to let those coupledom thingy bother me.once again..i crave..(did i say crave?)for the company of a partner.someone to share jokes and good news with , someone to watch movies or eat crap with you in the middle of the night.and of course , some one to share a house and family with.

today i saw the ultrascan of my colleague's baby..had a hard time figuring out the head and body n stuffs...but it was interesting ..so i started to search for information on ultrascan and babies..and stumbled upon this site(click here to read)
its interesting ..where a mother documents from i duuno when (i started reading from the birth of the baby) to date , and the baby is now a cute 1 yr old :)
its very heart warming , especially when i see the monthly newsletter where the mummy writes a 'letter' to her daughter.

a smile from the baby warms the heart of any mothers..its a pretty amazing thing to me..coz its seems like nuthing matters and everything fades when u see ur kid's smile.
i heard this from my colleagues. one is expecting now and the other have a yr old son..
the one tat has got a yr old son has his photos as her computer's wallpaper..she loves it when the boy smiles..and somehow she can;t stop when she talks about him..

the expecting one is due next month ..her third child and first daughter!she says sometimes she can't wait to deliever but once the baby is born , she wishes for the baby to be back again..nuthin could replace the warm fuzzy feeling of a baby moving inside u ...


wahaha..i am digressing too much...but i wish for the opportunity to really have a family one day and given the opportunity , would love to try to document every minute of the little one :)

okie...boring ..i like entertaining myself ..haha..okie..will update the pics after tomorrow's gathering or maybe after those 2 bloody tests aniwei...

ciao and if i dun blog in these 2 daess...

HAppy VAlentine Day!

Happy Chinese New Year !!

As i write...the tv is showing all those singing n fireworks going on ..thou my computer time shows only 11.59pm...

Is it as we grow older Chinese New year no longer holds much meaning?
Was talking to my mom on the way to gramp's place that it just doesn't feel as special anymore.As a kid , we were excited for the half day in school , performance by fellow school mates and treats given by teachers perhaps...followed by the excitment of meeting cousins n of course the ang bows at the end of the reunion dinner.
Nowadays , it just feel so routine..the same things over and over again every year without fail.
may i add that with the use of internet n presence of e-cards..people no longer value the "value" of sending new year cards ..yours truly included..:P
i got only 4 cards this year..thanks to those kind hearted souls :)
also didn't realli send those sms messages that i have been wanting to send ..hehe..
What i look foward to for this new year gathering is to see how much my nephews and nieces have grown.Next time if i can find their baby pics , will let u all see the comparisons..they are 8 , 5 and 1yr plus now..the youngest i heard have started walking ..gee..so cute...so can imagine how fast we have changed as well..

Have been trying to pack , have a social life and study? at the same time.I wonder why people have to do spring cleaning for the new year ?

Spring Cleaning

The Chinese practice spring cleaning before the Lunar New Year to un-clutter any negative energy accumulated through the year so that the new and auspicious "chi" can then fill your home or office during the change of festive energy. Base on the Chinese practice, some procedures should be observed such as getting a new broom, duster and cloths for the spring cleaning. Pomelo leaves are are used to tie on broom and duster to sweep and cleanse the entire house. You can also soak some pomelo leaves and flowers to clean affected area in the home or office.The cleaning should begin from the main entrance and work inwards to the premise if you have enjoyed a favourable year. Otherwise you should sweep from the most inner part of the premise and out of the main entrance to clear all energy in the premise and allow the auspicious "chi" to fill your space during the New Year.

*Hey , haven been doing any of that..will i have bad luck ?*

Yesterday took half day leave..went to the movies..watched "Flight of the Phoenix"..average show but i like Dennis Quaid..he looks so man..with all the muscles..so high tech nowadays , for every movie u want to watch , there is a website for it.I like Golden Village..good locations , nice website and links.Oh ya , duuno what i was thinking as well , suggested having V8 for lunch..had baked rice which was nice but oh-so-full..the service is still as bad may i add but the food is exceptionally nice.then i went for a manicure...did an express manicure(french)which set me at SGD20..woo~think that was pretty expensive but given the day , i didn;t have much choice coz most manucurists were FULLY booked!then went to Ps with wing to get her jeans then back home.
At work today , didn't have much things to do ..many were not at work so we were basically rotting there.received my extension of contract letter today..hmm..somthing to celebrate for the new year ?

i guess i crap too much today ..am so delirious(think wrong choice of word ..doen't reflect on the word i want but it sounds "smart" so i am not goin to take it away :P)

before i close , juz wana hope that in this new year , resolutions please be kept and done.n pray that i wun fail my tests on following Tuesday and friday coz i have NOT touched any books as yet..keke...

okay , i wonder if any one is gona read this super super super long entry .will be adding in photos from CNY(if there is ) and lastly and "leastly"..

HappIe cHINEse New Year!!!

all pictures updated on the new blog...please do visit it.

its still short of some rearragement but iTS there!

i love it n hope u guys do 2!


*mucks*

Back from Bangkok!

For updates on the bangkok trip...refer to
http://travelbugsinaction.blogspot.com/

just in the testing region..hope it is ok ...

now doin house cleaning...mid way..my room is in a mess..