We both CriEd

That day was a sad chapter in my life..so emotionally lost..i didn;t know what to do ..so i spent my morning on the pc..loooking throught pictures and pictures endlessly..

i think i missed this friend terribly...this is the first time in my life that i have cried at the aiport...at the thought of missing someone who have walked past the departure gate...

And for the first time , i felt that the aiport is a place of happiness and sadness..happiness at the arrival hall , waiting for loved ones to pass through the gates to be beside you and sadness at the departure hall , wondering when u will see your loves ones again..

i saw a lady beside me..sendin of her fren or sister i dunno , they were both crying , because they both know it will be some time when they will see each other again..

that day , i waited at the airport since 2plus .. we all met up and had small chats to pass the time..telling one another jokes and anedotes of school life , avoiding those leaving words..

i was trying to hold back tears , and i think she did too...it was until the last photo-taking that she burst into tears , before she went through the gates..

i think after that it was my turn...all the memories of the last few days keep coming back..the day of arrival when she said she missed us .."ho gua ju lei dei.."..this words will stay with me for a long time..

many thanks to deon , who actually help to console me by telling me stupid jokes..haha...but i still ended up using dunno how many pieces of his tissues.keke..

then i took 27 all the way to sengkang to san-xin and to toa payoh to meet wing ...got a treat from her..haha...that evening helped me take my mind off things..

i am really thankful for all my friends , the ones who go through all the different stages of my life..thanks for being my friend...



probably now i can only wait till we decide to go to hongkong before we can meet up again ...

OnE of My favOuriTe pic :) 

ArriVal 

Our First daY @ suNtec 

AftEr All thE exhaustiNg gamES! 

WilD wiLd WeT! 

See tHe meRliOn @ thE bacK? 

@ THe MusiCaL founTain 

mokeyiNg arouNd 

whY am I sO carEless to LoSE mY cAmeRa!!!

Feel so emotional now...they are going back today..really dun wish for them to go back...but all things must come to an end..initially i was thinking of saving up for beijing trip next year...but think i will be tempted to visit them in Hongkong within this year..

Argh..i feel so fustrated..i lost a lot of money within this week..firstly was the cab fare to airport..i gave a fifty buck and i got back 7 buck! so careless to not check as i was in a hurry and realized it after i sat down and went thru my wallet...

then yesterday ..i lost my camera at sentosa!i really hate myself for losing it...argh...why am i so careless ....all my memories all gone ! all the pics we took at wild wild wet , the jalan kayu prata , and the early part of sentosa...all gone!

i really wana cry , not all because of the camera but i really dun wan them to be back so early...shucks manz...argh!

please..i really pray that some kind hearted soul would return my camera...i realli realli treasure those pics we took ..each and every photo is my memory with them..

so worried for them too...brought them to double O last night and i can;t trust mr Gay's friend...he brought them out after the drinks and i heard they chat till 6am!

i shouldn't have let them go back with them...now they are so tired i think their whole experience is spoilt..am really sorry to them...

my mind is in a whirlwind...i pray that they are fine...

Please bless everyone

GLoriA's DaY oNe inSIngaPOre

The day is finally here ..and we have yet to settle on where to bring Gloria & her sis to..was very tired as i went out for karaoke the day before with my colleagues.

Briming with anticipation and thinking of what to say to her..i felt really excited.

Have you guys have the feeling that although you know that person for a short while , you feel that you guys have known each other a long time kinda feel? i had that with Gloria..i think we click on quite some levels..

We got to know each other when we went on the Moreton trip at Aussie.Initially i was thinking "oh no...i think this two people are so dao ..we gona have trouble making friends.." But halfway through the trip on the ferry towards Moreton Island , they approched us to share the seats.(we were takin up a booth seat)..then we started chatting..

Moreton trip was very refreshing for me , a trip back to nature...as we have to walk barefooted most of the time..it was fun but the most important thing was the two new friends we made.

On the way back to Brisbane , we actually chatted a lot , about our home country , ourselves , blah blah blah..and when it was time to say goodbye...i kinda wished to see them again...and the day suddenly felt short..we had so much to talk :)

To cut a long story short , i was surprised but very happy that they are now in singapore.Talked and talked most of the time...as you can see the time of blog , its now 3am plus and i reached home at 2am plus...so can u imagine the places we went and what topics we have covered along the way ..

They are really very nice people..and i am so happy and thank God for giving me this friend.
i really dunno how to describe the feeling ..She told me that she had this feel of missing us and there is a part of her that makes her want to see us again...and that why she came here in less than a month from our departure from Aussie..So sweet isn't it...i felt the same way too..its like you know you have so much to say and you have to meet in person to communicate.

I am just so afraid that i will not be a good host..i can't explain the places we go and practically every question she has! and we kept bringing her to eat spicy food..heehee...i really wish to introduce her to our very nice local food ...we went geylang to try the frog's porridge and it was spicy , then we took them shopping at suntec City Mall and followed by a long walk to the explanade and back...

After that we sent Gloria's sister back to the hotel and its round 2 !
We went Hougang , hoping to try the famous Punggol Nasi Lemak but it was closed :( so we adjorned to the next store... It was a dissapointment to me , the food was cold and unappealing and the otak was spicy again!
:( felt so embarrased that the food didn't present the best of Singapore to her :I

Then we went for a walk at Mustafa before sending Gloria back to her hotel ..

REally hope that they will enjoy their stay here and have a nice wonderful memory of Singapore :)

A bad story teller hor?..hiaz..hope didn't bore you guys to death ..

anyway enjoy the pics :) a picture tells a thousand words..hehe

pray that tomorrow will be a better Day !

Hip Hip Horrah!

ThE plACe wE hAD dinnER 

Dun TAke ME!! 

GloRIa Sis PLaYin wiTH CamERA whiLe waitIn foR thE fooD 

aLL KInD oF FisHES 

LoCal DriNks..PokkA GreeN TeA & CoConuT DRinK 

TiaN Ji = SweeT CHickEn ?  

Ah BenG 

Enjoying DinnER~ 

GlOriA & SiS @ FounTain Of WealTH 

GroUP PiC @ ThE FounTain 

PasTa ManiA @ SunTec CiTY 

OutSide ThE exPlanAde 

CaN sEE gOlriA's Sis in Da PicTuRe? 

AnotheR of 'DuN-tAke-Mi' PictuRe 

Gloria & mE @ ExplaNade 

Nasi lemak! 

duunO whaT i ShouLd titLe toDay

These two days have been busy at work , dunno why the hell things are coming all at one go ...initially thought i could do some of my assignment but..nononno..things just keep bombarding in...suddenly , feel like i am doing all the 'sai-kang'..what wasn't my responsibility suddenly became mine..and they just assume that i know how to do it...and i dun think its only me feeling this way ...Maybe its really time to go..

Anyway what i want to complain was that in the day , i was already busy with all the undone stuffs , then my supervisor ask me to see him with regards to a problem case..he ask me whether i have seen it before ..so i told him ..yes , when they pass around asking whose handwriting it was , i caught a glimpse of it..then he ask.."have u invoiced it?"
My Gaud...i exploded , ok not literally la , but i think i raised my voice a bit and said:"I haven seen the content how to invoice!"..i think he got a shock ..haha...coz i rarely raise my voice unless i am damm pissed..The rest of work day went on fine ...pending pending work alot ...a lot of procedures..sometimes i wonder how procedures make a person productive..coz by going thru so many level of authority to get a job done , can u imagine how long it takes to ding dong here and there to get things done...and imagine being paid to be part of the ding dong...good mah..find mistake here and there , make a fuss , send emails and pester calls and your day is complete!

Today class was good ...at least instant noodle becomes less rigid and the class less boring...this is the first time i didn;t doodle in her class..am so pleased :)

During break something happened..think those involved will know what i am saying.
I am sorry if i sounded very fussy or what but this is something that i expect of myself and of others , even my brother is not spared..

Because of my tendency to forget things that i loan out or pass to people , i would prefer people to update me on the whereabouts of my stuffs lor..COz i had experience of people borrowing from me and not returning , whether or not its deliberate i don;t know and i really dislilke such behavior..coz i know usually i dun get it back unless its realli very very very very dear to me...

Or maybe its the control freak in me la , i duuno..maybe i was pissed out by the tone of the message(i hope you dun take it to heart that i said this) , coz i felt that the message wasn't asking whether it could be done but 'i have done it , take it or leave it' attitude..which i can't accept.(i mean this is how i felt at that point of time la.)

I was thinking on my way home all the way when i was bathing why i was having such a big reaction ..and i finally thought of a conclusion..

my brother..

He has this habit of taking things without asking and i dun like it..sometimes when i need something urgently , no one bothers to help even thou they might be the one who took it..that's why i am very particular about my possessions..

you all might say ,its your brother lei.but BASIC COURTESY still rules right..its not about kinship but how a person is brought up...the 'jiao yang'..and how imporatnt you feel the human being next to you is..

besides stuffs , he also kapo my chocolates that i stashed in the fridge..you know when people put aside something ,it means that its special right?he deliberately open up and eat.>WITHOUT ASKING!
i dun like...i keep it privately of course got my reasons right..sometimes i want to give to some people , sometimes i want to wait for a special moment to open it...but do people care?NO..

which brings me back to younger days ...rememeber last time when u did well in school or what...you get special rewards like erasers or sweets or something...its has been a number of times that i feel i have been hurt...i remembered in lower primary , i got this scented eraser from a favourite teacher or something , i like it alot and never bear to use it..one day i came back and see my bro with it!~ i was so angry ,fuelled by the nonchalent attitude of my mom ...i could still remember..i shouted , why let him use my eraser..and to think that she could easily say "you are not using it what"..she never understood why such a simple thing could mean so much to me ..

why i keep lap sap ...is because all these means memories to me ...by using it (and without permission i might add) and not feeling apologetic about it make me so upset..these are all priceless to me...but you took away my memories.. :( eraser , pencils ..so many things ..

i derive satisfaction from recognition ..and i want to admit it..beacuse i always felt inferior in terms of my mum's love for both me and my brother..that;s why i treasure other people's recognition for my efforts , because i dun get that from my mom...she will tell me..' no..i can;t achieve this , she dun think i would succed in that ..' which brings my confidence level down.. maybe she feels that reverse psychology works , but sad to say not for me lor...i thrive on praises...people say good , i want to do better , people say bad..i accept that i can't achieve more ..thou i want to try to overcome that..

shucks..my tears are falling out liao ...tink i better stop blogging..

to my dear cousin...not trying to pinpoint anything , juz that today;s incident brings back all these memories..all bad stuffs are forgotten right..?

sorry for this very lengthy blog...although i doubt people would read also la...anyway i feel better now..letting everything out...

muz get ready for tomorrow le...its 1am again...if not wun be pretty liao ...bye bye..

seE thE faT content ..i wAna DiAO