THree Days of reST = Sick!

Ahhh..am feeling warm and hot together ...so what does that means?

Sick lo...


Nose running marathon now and feel so drowsy...feel like taking leave again but i think better not right?

Shall blog tomorrow...really drowsy ..

Nitz..

Eh..i Back Again...

Changed the layout of the blog again...dun feel like figuring out how to insert in the tagboard so shall just leave it as it is first.

My multiply account are left with 19pictures to upload this month.How very pathetic..so i think i will be posting pictures in here before i get my quota for next month!

Initially took leave so that i can bring my CD player to school with conveniene , ended up being posted that the audition is cancelled.I feel down-casted that i wasted a day...and also spent it on doing nothing.

People who reads my blog..i duuno how many of you do that..i thank you for listening to my rantings.Blogging is getting commercialized , with all sorts of companies and individuals with commercial intentions starting one.

To me , a blog is like a diary , you write what you feel.Sometimes , you tell people secrets in blogs that you would not have done in real life..

To May , Verene , Sindy , Jolie and Ash ..

You guys' blogs are those that i never fail to read everytime i switch on my computer.Thou i lurk around and only writes an occasional comment or tag , i do RELIGIOUSLY read them.Keep up all the good work..i want to know what is happening in your life..

For those who would like to leave a tag for me , send me an email...would love to hear from you guys...

Awaiting Dinner now..(yah i am so lazy waiting for mOm to bring dinner back!)..think i better do some workout(vacumming!)...

So email me if you guys are free ok?

Mucks,
Dilly aka lazy Gal Today

MooD SwiNg

Am feeling so fustrated , so if you are reading this..you can choose to leave now...if not hang on for some major venting..

I duuno what i am thinking , what i am even doing , i despise that kind of feeling , suddenly felt like returning to younger days , where i know what is my next step ahead..or probably not...because in school days , you visualize what you want to be , you can say you want to achive this and that and people would belive that you probably would too...as i grew older ,reality seeps in , you know that you cannot do this or that because its plain unrealistic.Then suddenly , i am stuck.Stuck between wanting to make a difference and between living the lives of reality.

Life feels so dark.There is no destination or i see not enough light in this journey of my life.I think peeople do feel like this in some parts of their life , i hope this will pass and one day i can proudly say i am very satisfied with everyday of my life.

Is this self-pity? i am worried.

My job..I enjoy it with my colleagues..They are a fun bunch of people , we often take long chats in the office ..But this is not what i want..i long to do something else but i don;t know what i can achieve or what i really want.Will there be any directions i be given ?How would i Figure out what i really want ? I feel life in a mess...table in a mess , room in a mess and i duuno how to start or clear...feeling like going for a long solitary walk but i am so afraid of being lonely.I need someone to walk with me...

All the friends..everyone has got their own lives..we are juz only a tiny portion in one another mind...that nothing really matters any more..any more...Only when they need help then will they suddenly day hi to you...and when they are done..a bye is what you get..i commit this too...to friends that i name acquaintences or...once friends but now relegated to acquaintances. You are no longer important to me as you have shown me so ...

There are friends whom i want to know you better , but you have shown your dis-interest in doing so ..All you have given me is all about YOu YOU YOU...have you ever stopped to give me a second to think of me?that sometimes i need your help no matter how strong i am?I do not need nor want you to tell me what i should and should not do...i juz need your listening ears..someone to stand by my decisions no matter how stupid or bad they may be.

We have all changed , for the good or better i do not know...i just hope that my dear friends whom i treasure and hope that you are doing well no matter the distances and words we say , please stay ..and for those who are my baggage and burdens , please leave me...don't take me like a fool..coz i ain't gona be one for ya..

Sometimes , i know that i have shown that i don't care for you..i am sorry...for the people who geneuinely care for me..you know who you are.

I need someone to walk with me...but i am so afraid..only someone knows the real reason why i am so afraid to fall in love and sadly , we both share the same fear..

I guess not many people can understand this feel coz they probably have not been through it..well ...its a blessing to them..

Recently , i was very close to someone.I had a great time with him...thou we generally talked about general stuffs , i kinda feel some connections..but the more i think about him , the more worried i become...for fear..for fear of something that i am so scared of...

We joked alot...debating about GOD , debating about people..we have extreme views and behave differently..but it just feels right..Once , we spoke about attending each other's wedding..then he ask me...:You want to be the Bridesmaid or the Bride?"...I was stunned.Was he joking or did he mean it?

Feelings is such an ironical thing...i dunno what kind of thinking he has for me.I am not sure what i feel for him too...So...i think i shalll leave things at that...Images of him helping me peel prawns , buyin food keeps coming in...arhh....help ah...

today , i took leave to zone out at home..my friend commented that i have too much money to burn..But i think its ok...sometimes a person needs time to chil and reconnect with her inner self right?

Feels much better now...

My OffiCe DesTop.. 

On mOi tAblE toP.. 

FooD wE orDEred frOm DeliFrance 

MY poRtioN.. 

SeriOUs @ WOrk.. 

TryiN ouT thE timeR funcTioN foR thE firSt time 

A SerioUs One 

Yeah..We ARE VAin! 

POuTY! 

ThE CanDID onE 

PreTty WoMeN! 

I meT 2 amAzinG peOPle toDay

Amazing Person 1:LAdy on Mrt

THis lady i sat beside her on the MRT..She looked normal , dressed in office wear , so i presume she should be off work and on her way home..The thing is...she put on make up ALL THE WAY from Tenah Merah Station to City Hall...Can u believe it...count the stations , it took a good 15min to travel that distance lo!

Not that i am against people to put on make-up , but is 15min too long ?Her face look so Caked up that i can't help but take a few more glances...

You tell me , guys like all that goo on the face ????i really duuno..maybe its time to change my old fashioned thinking...


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Amazing Person 2:Surveyor outside City Hall Mrt Station

He looked like the normal office guy , in a crisp white shirt and black pants , looking bespectled and well..normal..
He approached me while i was smsing my friend...(she is late)

Him:"Hi Sorry , I am a marketing Consultant and i represented XXX company to do a survey on working people aged between 20-30.Can you help me with the survey?"
Me:(since i am waiting..)"Ok lor.."
Him:"My name is XXX , and you are..?"
Me:YYY(he scribbles it in his notes)
Him:(entering the start of survey)"what is your occupation?"
Me: "emm ,SAP officer."
Him:"OH!..what is that?"
Me:"its a system used by the Company , we work using that system , so we are called SAP officers"
HIm:"wow..what company you are working at ?"
Me:"emmm , SQ..."
Him:"oh !...(pause for a moment) , what company is that ?"
Me:(disbelief in the heart)"Emm , Singapore Airlines??"
Him:"oh..so what industry is this in ?(wat!!you mean you don't know!)
Me: -_-"
Then the conversation continued into whether i want to change job , so i told him i want to set up a fashion boutique.
OK end survey , he walked off while i continued waiting...

5 min later...

Him:"Waiting for friend ?"
Me:(in my heart...ar bo then..stand here for show ah..)
Him:"Shopping ah ?"
Me:"eh , no ..going for class."
Him:Oh , where is your School?"
Me:"Raffles..mumble..mumble...(points to the direction of school)"
Him:"Is it in Orchard?"
Me:(rolls eyes...look aside ..hoping he takes the hint)
HIm:"So what course are you taking?"
Me:"Fashion Marketing"
Him:"Oh , so you like designing clothes?"
Me: -_-""""

You tell me how to answer ...I told him fashion marketing and he ask me whether i like to design..of course i told him no! then he ask why take up the course when i dun like design..i want to shout to him that blardy idiot ..i take marketing not design!!! not design !!! not design!!!
Do not Another time ask me whether i like drawing coz I am not taking drawing!

THat is the most amazing people i met today..i especially like Amazing Person No.2 coz he is so blardy idiotic...

LonG tIMe NO sEE!

Sorrie!

It has been a looong time since i lasted updated...it has been a hectic week...

SundAY: HappY bIRthdaY JOEY!!!
Sorry i didn't go for YouR birthDay CeleBration ..Make it up to yoU some Other daY ok?MIss you and Still Love you my Dear Cousin...

Saturday:Intended to stay home to complete assignment ..but what the heck...got called up for medical checkup...made me wake up at 8plus.The clinic was crowded and the procudures took longer than the actual inspection.Went to watch THe MAID after that...a good show despite hearing some negative reviews...the only bad thing was that i had to keep peeing...dunno what's wrong that day..humph..

Friday:ZAp Gor mEh (the 15th night of the hungry Ghost Festival)..went to aunt's place for dinner...looked forward to seeing all my relatives again..especially the nieces and nephews...so cute...but they are horrendours...i cannot fanthom the language they speak now...can you believe that a 5 year old can sprout out words like"breasts" easily?? Makes me reconsider thoughts of having kids...

THursday:Went BuyiNG Ms G's Birthday present with Mr Hairband and his friend..had a great time..can i divudge that i secretly felt elated when he put on the necklace on me ?No guy has ever done that for me before...Anyway to clear the air...i was only helping him TEST out the gift so don't think too much into it..Then we had Omu Rice at Taka Food court although we initially wanted to try the new Pepper Lunch which Ms X mentioned in her blog before.
After The shoPPing was done...we met up with Mr DJ and drove to ECP for Drinks.Another new place explored ! Think it was called BFD or something and we drank San Miguel..first time drinking beer...at least i did not get drunk despite losing a few rounds of scissors paper stones (only game i know how to play)

Then another round of red wine playing DAi Dee..before rouding up with Ba Chor Mee @ Geylang
It was a very very enjoyable night...with the company of three amazing guys..felt for the first time like a girl...with guys taking care of you all the way...pushing you with food first..awwww..then we had some honest talk (effects of alcohol?...) Was really a great night!

Wednesday:Nothing memorable i think...

Tuesday:School .

Monday:FAshion Show Assignment..a picture speaks a thousand words...shall let them do the talking. Please refer to Dilly's multiply site for all pictures!

Footnote:Am trying to do up my multiply site and hopefully a new blog will be coming soon! For now , please visit the multiply website for picture updates as well as my reviews on places I have been to and tried and would like to introduce to you guys! It is still in the improvement phrase so anything i can do better..please comment!


Updates:Feeling hungry so took out Ms X's gift of Nougats to eat..there are different flavors like Crunchy , Chewy , Cappuccino and Rainbow Soft..what funny names but nice.

Yeah , have finally completed one assignment , less the house-keeping..but i am satisfied..later , i shall proceed with vacumming my room , dinner , buy scotch tape! and then start my next assignment!

I feel so accomplished..aahhhh...

Jing4 Zai4 Bu4 Yan2 Zhong1

So many things have happened for the past week that i don't know where to start...will update the pictures once i have some spare time..

so tiredz...so many things...

now waiting for pictures to load in multiply...so many things to say...

argh...


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Lemme get soMe sleeP fIrsTz...

OUt and Over....zzzz.....

PastRies FroM DeliFrAnce.. 

preTTy Isn't it? 

YummY YummY fOod.. 

PuFF 

ChocoLate pastries...My FavouRite.. 

miNt SwEETs froM LoNdON.. 

HuiYing & Moi...wiTH deliCiouS BuFFeT Tea.. 

Vain..But i LikE... 

Tissue BoX...CutE woR~ 

DeOn & SooLan.. 

KathY & MoI 

CookiNg PraWns.. 

yUMMYliCiouS MaRshMallows 

Is NatioNal DaY goNa be GOnE likE tiS?

bored of doing assignment..its so boring that i dunno what i am doin ....so i went through my pictures folder and think..what the hell.."why can't i post pictures even though i do not have a camera.." so i look through the pictures and found one folder filed under" 14jul05_sofraturkishrest"..

The pics were taken on thurday if i am not wrong...i remembered i had one full week of going to City Hall...Was stressed out and needed some good food...so jio-ed my jie mei (who else that wing lor..) to go pig out with me.

Sofra was recommended by my colleague .Its at shaw tower think on the second level..you can see the restaurant if you are standing on the roadside along the Raffles Design Institute , where after the Shaw Tower you can see Suntec City ..

Ambience great..dark and cozy...food seems to be in small portion but its enough to fill us up...the only thing i found expensive was the coffee..@ sgd3.5 i think..so small cup some more...but it was thick enough..not for everyone...wing was complaining about it but i think it tasted ok...

She then taught me that you can look into the future from the residue in your cup...errie lei...coz i saw somthing like mountains...then she say she saw a face...scare me to death...hers was not accurate because she say i interrupted her with my discovery and she never finish up her coffee -_-"

Anyway , shall see how la..bookmark a page on coffee reading but never got to read it...i think i want to buy a book on dicherphering(?) dreams..like interesting liddat..


Sianz ah...later go buy vacuum cleaner !(my personal one!...can suck all the bad things in my life away..whahaaha) and maybe watch national Day parade..

I very pAtriotic one you know...

ThE souP we SharED..