Hail New York!

It's with mixed feelings for this pending trip.. yes! It's tomorrow.. in a twinkling of an eye , the trip is finally materialising.

After so many years of 'independent' travelling , it's my first time travelling with the 'Seniors'..wonder how would it be like..HaHa..

NY seems like a dream when we talked about it in the past , because 1) couldn't bear to spend that kind of Bling bling on an air ticket! 2) The hours on the plane is enough to kill!

I really don't know how i am going to survive the flight.

As i am typing , the rubbish is still on the floor.. damm.. how long am i goin to take to get everything packed and ready to go ??

So afraid of missing out anything that is important .. :P

And i think i am super salty-dified ... Thinking of how to comunicate with him over there..OK , so we got our phones , i've got my phone card ( too lazy to read instructions..bleah!) and emm, what else ... we are STILL six hours apart , just that iso of him being slower than us by six hours , we will be six hours slower than him!

OK la , its only for a week..relax!

Its gona be a great trip!

MOre updates when I am back!

Will miss you people!

Maybe this is life

Seems that there are some people who have a penchant to critise every part of other people's life except his or her own . MAny . And i think i happen to know one.

Are you too free? Or do you just derive fun from saying hurtful words to people over and over again?

Yes , i do realise that i am one of these people too.. i am critising you back here because i have no balls to do that to you in real life..

i really don't like talking to you ..so don't talk to me too.

Thanks.

Interesting..

Came across this in an email forwarded by a friend.

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

And here is my profile.. Any accuracy? I personally think so :P

You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

We are all conditioned by our environment and as such we respond to people's perception of ourselves, but you feel that conditions are not right at this time. You are experiencing certain reservations that are precluding you to develop a particular relationship, business or personal, that is being offered. It is 'make your mind up time' - the decision is all yours, but whatever decision you make, it will be the right one.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

A reminder to myself

Watched Nanny 911 today.

And i almost cried.

The family today was the 'Dirks'. Dad is working as i-dunno-what and mom is a part time singer. Quite well off family and 2 beautiful kids.

But the kids were horrible.. They hit and bite each other.. Horror. The eldest son , 3, was suspended from playschool coz he bit his classmate's crotch! Scary!

Cut a long story short , The Nanny had a hard time helping the family.

Sometimes , it really does take an outsider to knock the sense and help people to see 'The Big Picture'

I guess in today's society , especially in the country i live in , $$ is very important. In our chase for $$ , sacrifices are made. Kids are often rewarded with things of monetary value. I am one of those and i resent that.

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Yes,it feels good when you get things at your whim. Feels like we got the upper hand..
Parents are happy that they 'satisfy' us .

I dunno about other families or kids , but i felt resentful. All i wanted was simple love from my mummy but i was getting none.All my mom gave was "anything that money could buy". So i recognized that since i couldn't get her love , i might as well 'milk' her..so whenever i wanted something , i will give her good result in exchange.Cool right? i get good result and also whatever toy i wanted.

But mummy , all i wanted was just some love and concern from you ...is it too much?

All your time , you spend at your work ,if its not your work , its bro that needs you. You never seem to have time for me..

I really hate you for that. Used to and still resents now.

You say if not who would buy all those things for you..where are you getting money from.

Yeah.. I try to understand your point of view. I know its hard to bring up a family. You work to bring back the bacon.

All i want is just your time.

But this will never be right?

Because..i realize , subconsciously , i have been pushing you away. i don't wana get hurt anymore. I want to be selfish. See , if i don't put in any emotion, i won't get hurt anymore.

And i take revenge by hurting you.

Do you hate me? i have this feeling you don't love me or like me very much.

I feel very upset..

i feel that you don't even want to try to understand your own daughter.

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What i am more upset is that i can see our situation repeating itself , family after family.

And i can forsee the same thing happening to my friends and relatives.

$$$...$$$$..$$$$

Should I have kids in the future? Can i provide them my love and time , equally as well?

So afraid..very very afraid.

Harry Fiasco_PArt 2

So i was saying , we boared the ferry and tada.. on our way to Bliss!

The Hotel is a short distance from the ferry terminal.Service was good!

Upon arrival the staffs would gather everyone and the bus is already waiting! They collected our passports for 'choping' later.. Got such system one? I didn't know.. but the Q was a killer so ... thumbs up for such 'services'!

A few turns and we reached the hotel. Nice , warm cosy atmostphere..We likey!!

The staffs gave us a 'funny look' when they informed us that they only have KING BED available. WHat the Heck..we take la!

HAd the lunch @ 4pm..Harris Restaurant. Beggers can't be choosers..Food wasn't bad..At All! Looks + taste! i think it was quite worth the $$ .

OK...Part 3 next time.. Me is exhausted.

BAH!

So you think my blog is boring.. Bah.. i dun care.

As if your life is anything more interesting.

So stop attacking me on the way i lead my life and write my blog ok!!

The ForCe & HIm

I used to not take notice of talks about army and stuffs.. THey bore me to death.

Reading through the newspaper on 40 years of national service and a column on army love got me thinking. abit.
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Being with him taught me a lot of things. Loving family , loving one another and loving the country.

Sometimes we shouldn't be taking too many things for granted.

Like when i thought of bringing his mom out for dinner for her upcoming birthday , it reminded me that i have not done anything to that for my very own mother. When we brought his parents to the movies , it reminded me that i have not watched any movie with my mom since primary school.All the little things , its so there but yet so 'invisible'.

In the article , they showed the 'sms-es' between an army recruit and his girlfriend. The gal was very encouraging , helping the guy to adjust to army life..So short and sweet.

I did not go through such days with Salty . But our situation is well , almost similar..except that communication is much harder when you are continents & 6 hours apart.

Sometimes , talking for that few minutes can make a very big difference.Looking at the super laggy webcam is also satisfying , knowing that he is well.

I think he makes alot more effort in this relationship than i do ...i wish i could do more for him.

That poor boy is still suffering from jet lag , and tonnes of things for him to do.

At home, he has to think for his parents , look after me as well as shoulder a whole lot of stuffs which i think , is too much for a 21 year old.

I am really really proud of him.

Proud of him for being able to do all the above and also serve his country!

I like it when he explains to me the different terms used in his flying

I like it when he explains to me about the different uniform attire.(p.s haven seen him in uniform yet ... but is definetely smart wan lor!)

I like it when he looks so serious when reading his notes

I like it when he tells me stuffs that i do not understand...from the papers , from the tv ...Anywhere.
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Dear..Do you know that i wana hold you tightly in my arms and never let you go ?

Thanks for letting me know you.